This week has been exhausting. I feel shattered and as though I could sleep for days. That’s not to say I’ve had a lot going on. Not at all, in fact it’s a huge contrast from my ridiculously busy week last week. Perhaps it’s exhaustion, or maybe burn out but more than likely it’s probably because I have so much going on in my head.
I have so many things that I want to do, so many ideas, different directions I want to take this blog even, projects I want to start. Fitting all of this in around full time work is well, overwhelming to say the very least. I could slow down, stop and do things at a later date but I don’t want to. I want to do it all and I want it now.
A little project I’ll be starting as of now-ish is a sketchbook circle. A few people in my local area are going to do some doodling in a sketchbook, then we’re going to keep rotating them around and sketching in other people’s books until at the very end our original sketchbooks come back to us, filled with glorious art. I can’t wait. I’m a little behind with getting started because, well, time/work/exhaustion, but I’m definitely going to sit down tonight and throw myself into it. I haven’t picked up an oil pastel since GCSE Art and the thought of it is a little daunting!
Back to the future:
About 4 years ago I started my own little T-shirt making business. It started to really take off and I was so happy with it until I started working full time and I had to make a decision betwwen being management at Harrods or be working from my then tiny bedroom with not much else going on. I decided to try to juggle both but in the end I just couldn’t manage and gave up my creative outlet. It’s been on the forefront of my mind to start up again. I’m still working full time but maybe if I paced myself I’d be able to manage this time? Perhaps I won’t offer an on demand service this time? Who knows..either way watch this space!
A new me:
In recent months my weight has piled on. I know that it’s my terrible eating habits and lack of exercise. For some reason, I just can’t stop eating until I feel unwell. Even if I’m not hungry I feel like I need to eat. It’s stopping me from taking OOTD pics and feeling good about myself so I’ve decided to really cut back on the junk and drink a whole lot more water. Going to the gym is just not going to happen, so I’m going to start slow and do some YouTube videos. Maybe even walk half my journey home. I also really really want to sort my sleep pattern out. I’m too old for the late nights now.
Find that drive:
Lastly, my driving…ughh..so I was all pumped at the begining of the year at finally being motivated enough to take my theory and enough lessons to go for my test. My fear of failure (of course) kicked in and after I failed my test I just kind of gave up. I do want to pass though, I need to. So hopefully this weekend I’ll build up the courage to text my instructor again and book another test.
Lots to do and aim for and although some of it is daunting, a lot of it is exciting. The only words I have for myself at this point is, tip toe if you must, but take the step. Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest steps of your life.
Happy Friday lovelies!