You guyss I did it! I have been saying for months on end that my job is too stressful and I want leave and somehow this week I mustered up the courage to speak to my manager about it. She’s great, like really really great and was so supportive. After weighing up the pros and cons I’ve decided that I’ll cut my hours down to working just 3 days. This will mean less stress, more time to put into my blog, more time to invest in myself, study something and perhaps look for another job without being out of one. The possibilities are endless! At the moment I’ve asked for 6 months part time just to see how it goes. My income and savings will take a big hit but after working it all out, it’s doable.
Some of the things holding me back were whether I’d be able to manage without half my income, fear of what others would think of me, the fact that I should really have my career/life in check by now, not taking a career break. The guilt and fear mixed in with relief and elation was an odd feeling to say the least. In the end I thought screw this. It comes down to my happiness and mental health vs money. If I’m not going to value myself and respect myself enough to think of my happiness first, then who is?
Since the good news on the job front things are just looking better overall. I didn’t realise how much it was affecting me and My outlook has changed I guess.
I spent last night having dinner with my best friend and we talked and joked and laughed and everything just seemed good again.
I don’t want to jinx it or anything but dare I say it…I feel…happy?
Even though, I’ve now decided to take each day as it comes, there’s just 3 months left until the end of the year and that will be 3 months into my new work routine too, so I’ve decided to set myself some more goals.
1. Me time – I want to do at least one thing for myself/self improvement each month. Maybe learn something new or just something that makes me happy. Something I’ve always wanted to do but never got round to because of time constraints.
2. Driving test – I’ve taken my lessons and failed one test before (only just!) but I need to just go for it again. Extra time means no more excuses and if it means taking money out of my savings then so be it. It’s a life skill that I really need to get.
3. Blog consistently – sometimes I get emails from readers asking if I’m OK because I haven’t been around for a while. Life has an annoying habit of getting on top of things and I’m just not much of a scheduler. Now that I will have two extra days to play around with I’m hoping to publish posts consistently 3-4 times a week.
Life is too short. Money isn’t everything and everyone needs to take a step back every once in a while. It might be a small step in a direction you might not want to be heading in but who knows where it will take you and what doors it will open.
What’s been happening with you lately?